floating

2006/12/08

i shot myself in the head the other day and my soul refused to die-that bitch. i shot myself and i could do everything i did every single boring day of my life. hole in the head but the blood didn't blur my vision of life's misery. bullet in the brain but i stil deluded myself i could think (as i always did).

i refused to give up on death so i reached deep in my chest with my hand and there it was cracked in many places but still beating like a drum-the damn force that runs my life fluid through my body. i riped it out dressed it in a cute little barb wire and swang it like a marry-go-round. nothing: i was still the same old me. though torn from me, the beating force still ran my life.

now i was really pissed.

i gave in. vegetate: with see-through head and exposed heart.

posted by calamity @ 12/08/2006 01:26:00 pm

4 Comments:

At 8/12/06 6:55 pm, dusio said…

wow. Very powerful.
At 9/12/06 4:13 am, Zee said…

melodramatic tonight?
At 9/12/06 10:35 am, calamity said…

dusio: tnx

zee: judge from what you read
At 10/12/06 5:29 am, Zee said…

I stopped judging.
I either get fucked or I fuck, it's that simple now.
Not that I'm not judgmental ...
Far from it.
I am so full of predisposed bullshit that I could create the next terminal tidal wave to swallow the majority of land masses, but I'm holding back - so no worries!